BF.... bestfriend or boyfriend?

what I (think I) need right now is bf. bestfriend and boyfriend. My age is 20 already and people around me keep asking me if I have boyfriend or no. huhu. it is sad you know. And mom (and myself, sometimes) blame these korean things. I really want to have realtionship with man. want to be loved and loving. want to be wanted and wanting. want to be cuddled and cuddling. Dear God...You know what is the best for me so I want to ask you about this thing. If You allow me to have relationship with someone, please let it be. and I miss you my best. all of you. I really do.